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unknown number by broadley
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
04 Jul 2026
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Shane sees his ex at a cafe and texts what he thinks it’s a dud number to look busy, little does he know it belongs to Ilya. Shane uses the thread to use as a reminder for stuff he has to do. Ilya enjoys reading what this mysterious man does until he gets a text at 3am.
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Much to Rocky's concern, Grace begins to act differently. He no longer wants to leave his house or even teach. He stops eating. He pushes Rocky away.
Rocky falls apart while trying to put his friend back together, requiring Adrian to help him pick up the pieces of both himself and Grace
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Inspired by ryland-and-rocky (Tumblr) post
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- Part 19 of Project Hail Mary Oneshots
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bone dry champagne by the_lyma_bean
Fandoms: Twisted-Wonderland (Video Game), Twisted-Wonderland: The Animation (Anime)
03 May 2026
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Cater has always disliked champagne, for its decadent sweetness, its bubbliness, fruity and dry. And yet, he sits on the floor of his dorm room, drinking and drinking and drinking.
You are all alone, and no one is coming to save you.
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I know better now by silversurfer
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
28 Mar 2026
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Shane meets Ilya in Tampa for closure – he knows he’s gay now, and also knows he wants something serious, committed, reliable. He’s ready to end things neatly and conclusively. Ilya is going to have to accept that.
... Ilya takes this about as well as you would expect.
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Shane Hollander is inexperienced when it comes to dating men. He's been out for a while and wants to build his confidence, so he meets up with Ilya, an escort, per a friend's recommendation. Ilya is an excellent teacher and all the things Shane could want in a man, but this is Ilya's job. Shane needs to decide what to do about the feelings he has for Ilya; stick things out and ultimately get his heart broken or break it off now before he gets in too deep.
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Cognitio Ergo Sum by Tylinos
Fandoms: Persona 5, Doki Doki Literature Club! (Visual Novel)
25 May 2026
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When Makoto decided to download a quirky little visual novel she found online, she was looking forward to a nice night of relaxing to a lighthearted story about romance and literature.
The last thing she expected was that she'd end up falling in love with a sentient character from a horror game.
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Aikawa Toshiro is born anew on the heels of the third shinobi war. He's clanless, average in strength, and is alive on luck alone. But he's here. And he's about to make it everyone else's problem. Life beget change, and if Konoha is so frequently likened to a tree, shouldn't it be expected to grow?
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- Part 1 of what's the procedure?
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Divorce And Flirtation for Lucifer... And Alastor? by Thanatos_Daughter
Fandoms: Hazbin Hotel (Cartoon)
04 Jul 2026
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“Are you trying to flirt with me?” Lucifer asked his eyes narrowing at the radio demon.
Alastor lets out a satisfied hum and takes another sip of his drink. When he raised his head this time, he tilts it to the side.
“And if I am?” He asked. His voice smooth, sending shivers down his spine leaving Lucifer feeling breathless.
He had to brace himself against the counter. This couldn't actually be his life. This was insane.
He literally had his divorce papers sitting in front of him and Alastor trying to smooth talk him at the same time.
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Based off of Zahrarah post and all the fanart on Bluesky!
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Just Let Me Hold You While We're Falling Apart by Hellobeany
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
01 Jul 2026
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The airport looks like it always does. A sea of people oblivious to anything going on around them. Ilya is about to put his headphones over his ears when he sees something so familiar his brain almost doesn't register it. That is until he realizes that he's in fucking Moscow so this doesn't make any sense.
Because right there at the gate, spread out over several chairs, his duffle bag as a pillow, is the figure of Shane Hollander sleeping. The hood of his sweatshirt is up and he's wearing sunglasses, but Ilya would recognize the shape of Shane Hollander anywhere.
“Hollander?” he asks in shock, stepping closer.
Or, Shane shows up in Russia after learning Ilya's father died. Ilya did not ask him to do this. He just showed up. And now Ilya doesn't know what to do with himself. He proceeds to just go with it, and maybe listen to Shane for once.
Another song inspired fic, this time Ever the Same by Rob Thomas which I argue is underrated.
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Ilya? ilyaaaaaaaaaaaaa by Lux_k
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
27 Jun 2026
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“Shane—“ David eases.
“—dad, tell me Ilya isn’t the prettiest person to ever exist?” He slurs, and looks up at him with those stupid eyes that he got from Yuna. The ones that convey discipline and planning one moment and then softness and heartbreak the next.
“He’s very pretty, monkey.” David says. He looks up at Yuna. “When does he tell you that you’re pretty?” He asks.
“All the timeeee.” Shane says with glee. “I hate it when people say that, but Ilya… Ilya says I’m pretty and I like it.” He takes the effort to sit up on the sofa, as if he’s suddenly become awfully serious, and states “I’m gonna marry him. My pretty boy.”
He collapses back down and falls straight back to sleep.
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Or shane has his wisdom teeth taken out. High Shane is very funny. David also gains a second son.
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Shane has a medical abortion at home, with Ilya supporting him every step of the way.
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Under One Roof by notatrixieblog
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
07 Jul 2026
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At 35, Ilya's life could not be going worse frankly. His best friend is asking for a divorce, he has a boring job and his boring co worker pities him enough to invite him to spend a few weeks with him and his family on their annual vacation to their summer cottage. And he's so pathetically lonely he accepts.
At 22, Shane has his whole life ahead of him. He's the captain of his university's hockey team, he's suspected to be the first draft pick in the MLH and he's able to maintain a 4.0 GPA on top of all that. His lack of a social life doesn't really bother him, he'll have time to date once he's achieved his life long dream. He's sure a girl will come along eventually.
OR Ilya is Shane's dad's hot co worker who ends up at the cottage one summer.
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Mike's life is split into two, clean halves. His life in Indiana, in the sun's harsh light, where he's fucked up in more ways than one. And then there's his other life, under the alias of legendarymichael, on the never-ending planes of the Internet. His digital heaven, where Mike exists as an untouchable, faceless deity; worshipped and praised.
Mike is good at keeping the two separate. Or so he thought, until Will Byers collides into his neatly sliced life, and derails it all when he takes a bite from both halves.
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Faceless content creators legendarymichael and williamethyst snowball into an online rivalry. At the same time, Mike Wheeler meets Will Byers at a dog park, and begins to fall in love. Those two sides of their lives begin to bleed into one perfect storm.
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Déjà vu by NotEvenCloseToStraight
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
08 Jul 2026
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2014: Ilya Rozanov shocks the world and breaks Shane Hollander’s heart by disappearing without explanation, and without a goodbye kiss.
2024: A devastating injury forces Shane to retire early, so he moves to a small town to coach girls hockey and figure out what the hell to do with the rest of his life.
When recently divorced Ilya Rozanov walks into the rink with his twin girls, Shane has to decide if he’s brave enough to risk a second chance on a broken heart, and a rekindled romance with the first and only boy he ever loved.
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“So.” Ilya cleared his throat. “Should we tell the girls their Papa and their coach used to date?”
“We didn’t date. We hooked up a few times, then you disappeared.” Shane looked away to hide his heartbreak as he lied, “It doesn’t even matter. It’s not like I loved you or anything.”
“No, of course not.” Ilya tried to smile through a lie of his own, “I didn’t love you either.”
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- Part 6 of Heated Rivalry
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i will choose you by whateveridk
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
28 Apr 2026
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“I’m sorry,” Shane whispers against Ilya’s hair. “I’m so, so sorry. I didn’t—”
Shane cuts himself off with a faint stutter in his breath that Ilya feels in his own chest.
“Please,” Ilya begs, but he isn’t sure what he is even asking for.
He wants Shane to leave. He wants Shane to stay. He wants Shane to hold him and never let go.
Ilya feels Shane’s fingers fist in his curls, holding tight as if Ilya could ever bring himself to pull away.
Shane doesn’t know that Ilya could never, that he cannot fathom turning his back to take even one step away from him.
All he can do is push Shane away, make him walk first, and pick up the pieces left behind.
Or an alternative to that fight from the long game, but instead of Shane leaving as Ilya asks, they actually talk it out
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The right amount of hurt and comfort and hopeful ending 😩
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Things dropped carefully by lady_owl_68
Fandoms: Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
13 Jun 2026
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Shane has always lived inside himself.
Inside his head. Inside his routines. Inside the version of him everyone trusts to hold it all together. He has learned through the years how to be disciplined, successful, untochable—how to carry love and expectation withouth letting either slip.
What he hasn’t learned is how to ask for help.
Luckily, his boyfriend Ilya, who everyone believe is his rival, notices first. He starts to see the patterns Shane won’t name out loud and the silences that last a little too long. He loves Shane, and that means paying attention, even when what he finds is frightening, even when he struggles too.
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Shane slowly develops an eating disorder during the time he and Ilya are secretly dating while still playing for Montreal and Boston, and Ilya is the first one to notice, and the first one to try to do something about it.
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- Part 1 of What love cannot prevent
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Lucifer hated this part of the job. Dealing with bad people sucked but dealing with every omega who wound up in Hell was terrible. He couldn't handle their cries and sobs, the anger and despair, that was all his fault.
Leave it to Heaven to decide to condemn his greatest creations down to Hell forever no matter how good they were.
And leave him to pick up the pieces.
AKA Hazbin Hotel but a/b/o and omegas were a creation of Lucifer's so they all have to go to hell with him.
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“What do you want me to do?” Remus says, tiredly. All he wants is to curl up on his bed. Smoke a pack of cigarettes. Get drunk. He can’t stop looking at Harry.
“Remus...” Dumbledore is gentle. Remus hates when he has that tone. Hates that he knows it will hurt. “There is no one else left.”
A bitter laugh escapes him. “So you’ll curse the poor thing with a werewolf for a guardian?”
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True Blue by mar1p0sa_papp1l0n
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
08 Jul 2026
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The thing is, David’s pretty sure the kid’s living in a car. Or a motel, or something. Things aren’t good; he’s sure of that. He’s not the most observant guy, and he’s kind of shocked Yuna and Shane seem completely oblivious. Ilya’s twelve years old and wears a sweatshirt that hugs his shoulders far too tight, jeans that ride up past his ankles. He grimaces every time he has to force his feet into his shoes, clearly also too small. He absolutely, patently refuses to be driven home, and Irina never picks him up. He says he doesn’t know his mother’s phone number when Yuna asks for it; David suspects she doesn’t have one. And Ilya completely shuts down when someone mentions joining a hockey team.
Ilya and Irina find themselves in Ottawa in 2003. Or more accurately, the Hollanders find them, and never seem to let go.
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Modern Lockets by princepixel
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
12 May 2026
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“Sweetheart, your pretty little head is so silly. For every photocard I make of ugly hockey men, I make two of my gorgeous, radiant, pulchritudinous boyfriend. Sometimes three.”
A smile breaks through the heated haze of Shane’s expression. “You’ve been using the thesaurus Dad got you for Christmas?”
“I will beat Yuna Hollander at Scrabble one day,” Ilya declares against Shane’s hip bone.
In the year between the Cottage and the Centaurs, Ilya misses Shane more than ever. Svetlana’s teenage cousin offers a coping method: Kpop-style Shane Hollander photocards to stare at all day long. It's a shame carrying around pictures of fellow hockey players is just not socially acceptable.
…At least, not yet.
(AKA: Ilya's mission to desensitize the hockey world to his Hollander fanboyisms, and the NHL players that suffer for it.)- Language:
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