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    "Hollander..." The name came out strangled, broken. "Fuck. Fuck, I forgot—"

    Shane understood in the same instant, the absence of latex a shocking heat inside him. 

    Christ. 

    or - the boys forget to use condoms for the first time

    Pt2 - Ilya Rozanov does, in fact, own a belt

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    07 Jul 2026

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    "The subjunctive is the mood of uncertainty, right? What might have been. Or might be someday. It's…hopeful. You don't know for sure, but maybe." Nick gives Elle a crooked smile. "It's the mood of possibility."

    Canon divergence AU: Nick befriends Elle first. Charlie and the others come along as a package deal. And it turns out that accidentally fake dating your bestie gets even more complicated when you catch feelings for someone else…

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    29 Jun 2026

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    24 Jun 2026

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    Shane’s brain cycled rapidly through a half-dozen celebrities, porn actors, Grindr profiles, every attractive bartender who’d ever served him a beer, trying to find a comparison for this level of outrageously concentrated beauty in one person, but he was drawing a blank.

    The man—Ilya Rozanov, Facilities Attendant, his badge read—gestured around the supply closet. “I help you find something?”

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    Canon-divergent AU set during the 2017-18 MLH season. Shane Hollander doesn’t have a single Cup to his name when he meets a very hot and very annoying janitor who works at the Metros stadium.

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    22 Jun 2026

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    The plane carrying the Voyageurs home from Houston crashes just after take-off.

    Shane is on board.

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    20 Jun 2026

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    There’s a sign in front of Shane. It says Welcome to Scott Hunter and Kip Grady’s Happily Ever After in a cursive font that makes Shane think of Etsy. Shane’s stomach churns. He briefly squeezes his empty ring finger. He feels, all at once, like he might cry. Instead, he swallows, and breathes, and pastes a smile on his face, and marches his ass down to Scott and Kip’s fucking wedding of the century.

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    19 Jun 2026

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    On very bad nights, Lyosha lets himself look. He pulls up KHL scores, reads articles about Dynamo’s powerplay. After a while, he wanders into articles about ex-KHL players who play for the MLH now. He’s a Dynamo diehard, of course, and prefers the KHL, but he’s a casual Valery Garipov fan, and it would not be a surprise to anyone that he occasionally keeps tabs on how the Puffins are doing. It would not be a red flag, to anyone watching.

    The Puffins are not doing so well, as it happens. Not like another team, that leads the league and dominates conversations, to the point that even articles about the Puffins can’t help talking about them. To the point that sometimes, sometimes, there are even stray pictures. Nothing that Lyosha will ever linger on. He is his father’s son. He lives in Moscow. He has a daughter who is fifteen.

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    16 Jun 2026

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    loveee alexei character studies

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    Ilya Rozanov, newly retired former captain of the Ottawa Centaurs, has a busy year. Entrepreneurship, hockey and pregnancy wait for no one.

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    13 Jun 2026

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    Most people know that famously superstitious Shane Hollander repeats any pregame routine that takes place before a playoff win.

    It's probably best they don’t know that routine includes his sex life with the opposing captain.

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    08 Jun 2026

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    A series of Heated Rivalry / Game Changers fics with loose themes of drinks, bars or drunkenness <3

    Drink responsibly!

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    04 Jun 2026

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    For one, singular, blissful moment, nothing is wrong when Ilya wakes up.

    And then the bubble pops.

    With something less like a pinprick and more like a gunshot.

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    After Ilya is outed he has to deal with being the only openly queer player in the league, being Russian, and being in love with Hollander even after he ran away all at once. It sucks. He does it anyway.

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    29 May 2026

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    "This is Ilya Rozanov," Hayden says. "You might have to hospitalise him if you want to play center anytime soon."

    "Noted," Shane says, sipping his drink to avoid that intense gaze.

    "You are Shane Hollander, yes? I have heard of you."

    "Yeah?" Shane feels himself bristle. His acceptance into a men's league last year as a trans man did get some low-level coverage. He stands straighter, ready for some insult about -

    "Mm, yes. My friend took me to see final of your league last year. You scored big hat-trick to win game." He takes a slow sip of his clear drink. "But backhand is a bit weak."

    "Weak backhand?" Shane scoffs.

    "Yes. Is okay, I will teach you. Maybe let you play center once or twice during season."

    "That's not happening." Shane feels anger running under his skin, but relief as well, that the guy was just chirping his hockey skills. "Thanks for your generous offer, though."

    t4t hollanov tboys play on the same hockey team in uni - out/early transition shane x stealth ilya

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    24 May 2026

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    No serious hockey fan or sports commentator worth their salt would have considered record-breaking Boston superstar Ilya Rozanov to be Shane Hollander’s rival exactly, but sleeping with a man who had a specific offense-related vendetta against him and a wrist shot like a jet engine to back it up was probably ill-advised just the same.

    Or, Shane is a goalie. Ilya can’t score.

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    15 May 2026

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    one of my favorite hr fics of all time. goalie shane you are so so special to me

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    Here are some facts:

    Six months ago, Ilya and Shane sat on Ilyas’ couch, in Boston, and said, we want to be more, even if it has to be in secret.

    Four months ago, Ilya Rozanov and Shane Hollander bought new houses. If asked, they would both say it was a complete coincidence. They were not asked, because most people do not browse Zillow for fun in their free time (Shane-) and the real estate of hockey players was of very limited interest to even the most hardcore fan.

    Two hours ago, Shane Hollander was bleeding out on the ice.

    Yuna and David Hollander were at least three hours away, at the exact moment their son hit the ice. Yuna Hollander is a perceptive woman. If she enters the house, she will know her son does not live alone.

    Here is the most important fact Ilya knows right now: Shane would not want to come out to his parents like this.

    Ilya has one hour to wipe his existence from his boyfriends’ house.

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    10 May 2026

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    “You are planning to rob me or what?” He hears Rozanov call, and he can’t help but smile slightly even as he rolls his eyes, closing the door to the linen closet and feeling strangely lighter than when he opened it, reassured that he’s just trying to read into a blank page, that today doesn’t mean anything more than Rozanov doesn’t mind him being around, which is strangely flattering.

    “I don’t know,” he calls back. “Don’t Russians like diamonds and fur and stuff? Where should I start looking if I want to know what my options are?”

    He hears Rozanov laugh, and it makes him smile.

    When he joins him in the living room once more, Rozanov tugs him down to lean against him again. Shane goes easier this time, settling into it, knowing it doesn’t mean anything other than the fact that he just happens to be the closest warm body, the person on Rozanov’s roster who filled today’s slot.

    (the tuna meltdown doesn't happen) (this does not mean they get ANY better at communication)

    (or: how shane didn't realize he had a boyfriend for several months)

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    10 May 2026

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    Welcome to the secure chat room.
    Chatting with 10 users.
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    Rozanov: I want to coordinate a mass coming out for a bunch of MLH players. If we all come out at once, no one has to be first.

    Or, after his father's funeral Ilya decides to gather all the queer hockey players for a mass coming out.

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    06 May 2026

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    Shane stared up at the ceiling. Everything he’d been keeping inside for the last month was threatening to boil over into a ugly mess, and his eyes stung. “I thought that if I could just ignore it, it would go away. I thought that if I gave it more time, I’d keep myself from doing something drastic.”

    He rubbed at his face and kept his hands there, a shield to protect him from the weight of the decision he couldn’t keep running from. “It’s been weeks, and I don’t know what to do. I feel sick every time I think about going back, but…” He looked at Ilya and saw the blue eyes there creased with concern, sadness, and that simmering anger at everything that had ever hurt Shane. He sniffed. “I don’t think I’m strong enough to leave. Leaving feels like giving up. But so does staying.”

    “No.” Ilya shook his head and shuffled forward so his body was mirroring Shane’s, twin parentheses encompassing their shared years in between worn bodies. “No, my love.”

    Or: After the playoffs end for Montreal and Ottawa, Shane has a decision to make. His relationship with the Metros is on thin ice, and it might take a couple Centaurs to break it for good.

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    03 May 2026

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    “Seeing you smile like that, it makes me want to give you all of this,” he called out, making a sweeping gesture across the ice.

    Shane turned back to look at him, eyes bright, and laughed. “Canadian Tire Centre? I know you’re rich, Rozanov, but an entire arena is a pretty big real estate investment.”

    Ilya pushed off, skating to a stop in front of him, knowing his expression had morphed into something serious. “Hockey, Hollander. It should have been yours.”

    Or, everything that happens when your dreams don’t come true.

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    22 Apr 2026

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    Shrugging one shoulder far more casually than he possibly feels, Ilya says, “I like both. Is secret, okay?”

    “Okay,” Hollander says, voice cracking.

    He doesn’t say anything else. The air’s so heavy around them that it feels like being in the middle of a scrum, the weight and heat of all those bodies pressing down on you. Danger always feels like hockey; it’s the most dangerous thing Ilya knows, except for this. Everything dangerous in his life involves men’s bodies and just how close he can get to them. Closer than he probably should.

    A year after mysteriously dropping out of the 2009 draft, Shane Hollander is signed by the Boston Raiders, right behind Ilya Rozanov. Having the two biggest stars in the league on the same line is great for Boston — but playing alongside their worst rival was never exactly in Shane or Ilya's plans. Especially not when staying away from each other starts to feel just as impossible as getting along.

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    15 Apr 2026

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    genuinely some of the best characterization of shane and ilya ive read(shane in particular) i love this fic dearly <3

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    “Can’t hang out tonight, Hayd. I have plans.”

    “Bullshit,” Hayden responds. “You never have plans.”

    Objectively, this used to be true. Nowadays Shane has many, many plans, between his nightly plans to look at Ilya’s penis through Skype and his various long-term plans laid out helpfully in his notebook, Canva (For Ilya’s sake. He is a visual learner), and more recently, Excel. Shane loves that excel sheet. He’s colour coded it.

     

    In 2017, Shane Hollander spirals and proposes to his boyfriend of 4 days (or 7 years, or 9 years, or not his boyfriend at all, depending on how you look at it), which leads to a lot of plans, weird theories in the Montreal Voyageur locker room, some Twitter drama, and Ilya Rozanov entering his WAG era.

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    13 Apr 2026

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    still ongoing, but its already one of my favorite fics!!

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