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  1. Rec 26

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    04 Jul 2026

  2. Rec 20

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    Ilya Rozanov was not an alpha. He was not a beta. He was not an omega.

    Ilya Rozanov was nothing.

    And Shane Hollander was everything. And that's why Ilya could never have him.

    (Or - A story about recovery, reclaiming identity, finding peace, and falling in love. Starring my favorite soulmates, Ilya and Shane.)

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    03 Jul 2026

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    TL;DR: It's like Friends meets Almost Famous with HR incidents and better oatmeal continuity.

    Shane Hollander is a freelance concert photographer with a day job at a camera shop, a bank account in active distress, and a long-standing professional fixation on Ilya Rozanov, front man of the Russian rock band Rozanov. Professional. Definitely professional.

    For years, Shane has shot Ilya from the pit: first three songs, no flash, get the shot, get out. Then Rozanov’s lead guitarist gets arrested at the border, the tour starts rearranging itself around disaster, and Shane finds himself getting closer to the machine than any photographer is supposed to get.

    A photo pass becomes a backstage pass. A backstage pass becomes a job. Access becomes proximity.

    And proximity, unfortunately, has consequences.

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    16 Jun 2026

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    “This will not be easy,” Ilya warned, absently touching Shane’s freckles as he always did when he was particularly stressed. “My brother didn’t name me as a guardian, and Russia will not be too happy to give one of their citizens over to someone who famously married another man.” He let his head fall back against the headboard. “And the media will be insufferable.”

    Shane nodded. Yes, this entire situation would be a fight…and, even if they won, this little girl may not be pleased to go with them.

    “And if she stays with Polina?” he asked cautiously. “What would that mean for her?”

    Ilya wrinkled his nose. “Nothing good,” he finally admitted.

    Or

    When Shane and Ilya pictured kids they did not necessarily imagine fighting all of Russia to get custody of Ilya’s recently orphaned niece, who is traumatized, prickly, and raised by the laws of her country. Alas, neither Ilya nor Shane could be accused of doing things the easy way.

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    15 Jun 2026

  5. Rec 32

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    Two years ago, Shane Hollander walked away from hockey and vanished. Now his old friends want to know where he's been.

    Unfortunately, every answer seems to involve Ilya Rozanov.

    Between a monster hunt in the northern woods, a camping trip with people who don't trust Ilya, and Shane's increasingly obvious willingness to choose him over literally everyone else, the weekend gets complicated fast.

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    15 Jun 2026

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    Shane Hollander’s hopes for the NHL were ripped from him by an ACL tear and replaced with doctor prescribed opioids at age 18. Four years later, hockey is a distant memory and his days consist of strange men and chasing a feeling drugs can never seem to provide anymore.

    Ilya Rozanov’s family returned home to Russia when his father’s mental state deteriorated and the government wasted no time snatching back his work visa. Ilya stayed behind in that godforsaken city to do the only thing he had ever been able to support his family doing: sell dope.

    Ilya sees a lot of sad people. Shane sees a lot of horny men. Neither of them are prepared for what they see in each other, and what it means for the boxes they’ve allowed themselves to be put into.

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    15 May 2026

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    “I feel really good about this kid, I think he could be great on your wing, he just needs some help settling in. Someone to show him the ropes.”

    “Yes.”

    The line went silent for a moment. Ilya wasn’t really sure why his coach felt the need to run this by him.

    “Rozanov,” his coach said at last. “I want him to live with you.”

    Ilya blinked, then nearly shouted into the phone. “What?”

    * * *

    or, Ilya stays in Boston, gets a rookie, and tries to figure out how to make a secret long distance relationship work while there's a Russian teenager in his house

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    24 Apr 2026

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    It figures that even half-way across the world Ilya's dick manages to ruin Cliff's day. The real surprise is that it isn't the only dick involved in this mess.

    Featuring an ill-timed outing, a supportive but clueless team trying its best, panicking over Russia's LGBTQ laws, too many group chats, an unhinged 3am brainstorming session on how to get your captain a new citizenship (asking for a friend) and Roz' inability to answer his fucking phone.

    Or: Ilya disappears in Sochi. Half-way across the world his team does its best to help. Their best is more than anyone could have foreseen.

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    16 Apr 2026

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    Cliff Marleau has known about Ilya Rozanov’s relationship since Ilya was twenty-two. 

    It’s not like it was complicated to put the pieces together, is the thing. When it all comes out in public, the Raiders have various different meltdowns – Twitter explodes in a way that is sort of unprecedented, and breaks out of the hockey specific Twitter spaces the same way that the Scott Hunter thing did. There’s shitty headlines and queer space headlines, and it’s a whole thing. And Cliff is pretty sure he’s the person least surprised about it. 

    But here’s the thing. Cliff Marleau has known Ilya Rozanov since the kid was eighteen. 

    OR:
    Marly's not as oblivious as everyone thinks. Throughout his time knowing Ilya Rozanov, he picks up on some things nobody else seems to be seeing. He keeps his mouth shut about it.

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    16 Apr 2026

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    Ihhhhhh obsessed

  10. Rec 166

    Mystery Work

    Part of Crypto
    Summary

    This is part of an ongoing challenge and will be revealed soon!

    15 Apr 2026

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    Rozanov is due to arrive today. Cliff isn’t freaking out. Not even a little bit. He just has no idea what to expect from him.

    Or:

    Five people who fail to clock Ilya Rozanov and one who immediately figures him out. AKA "being a little transparent as a hockey player is fine, because it doesn't occur to other hockey players that you might be queer".

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    13 Apr 2026

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    All of Shane Hollander's focus is on keeping his head down and graduating from his sports medicine program. He's perfectly content to focus on his studies, happily neglecting parties or meeting girls. But when he's forced to go a club by his friend Hayden Pike, he meets an alluring stranger named Ilya. After their initial encounter, they begin hooking up in secret as Shane grapples with his sexuality.

    There's something strange about Ilya, though. He won't tell Shane where he works or what he does, threatening people seem to follow him around, and most of all, he's constantly plying Shane with expensive gifts. But it's probably nothing. After all, there's no organized crime in Montreal—right?

    OR: Bratva Ilya Rozanov AU!

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    09 Apr 2026

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    “Did you like them? My parents?”

    Ilya squints at him. “I love them,” he says simply, like it should be obvious. “They’re your parents.”

    But, Shane thinks idly, there's a difference, isn't there, between loving them and liking them?

    (5 times Shane thinks Ilya doesn't like his parents and 1 time he finds out the truth)

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    10 Mar 2026

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    Ilya can’t be so separate from it all anymore, can’t get by on hotel room visits and brief phone calls when they’re in different time zones. It isn’t enough. Not anymore. Not when every iteration of the future they could have waiting for them one day had collapsed in on itself when Shane hit the ice.

    Ty moya zhizn', his mother used to tell him. But it isn’t quite enough in this sense, Ilya decides. He looks at Shane, at Emi, and he thinks instead: Ty moya prodolzhenie.

    Not just you are my life, but you are my future.

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    04 Mar 2026

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    Shane's eyes squeeze closed again. “We had reason to put rules in place. Protocol. If ever—if it got to a place where, if he was ever feeling like he might—"

    Hayden’s body understands before his mind catches up. His blood runs cold for a second, stuck on the scrunch of Shane’s face, the clench of his fist, how desperate he’d been to see Rozanov—Ilya—just now. To make sure that he was okay. Here, in person.

    Not hurt. Alive.

    “Oh,” Hayden hears himself say distantly. “Oh, fuck, Shane.”

    --

    or, Ilya needs a place to go, and Hayden's happens to be the closest. It turns out to be a good thing.

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    04 Mar 2026

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    “I have a secret,” Ilya whispers. 

    Half-awake, Shane blinks at him sleepily. “What is it?” 

    “I cannot say.” Ilya’s eyes flicker between Shane’s. “But this secret, it is why things are complicated. It is why I didn’t go to Russia when my father died.” 

    OR: a rewrite of Heated Rivalry, with a twist.

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    02 Mar 2026

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    “I did something stupid,” Shane confesses, inhaling rapidly. He's still crying, still frozen in the doorway, besides his hitching chest and watering eyes. Hayden's never seen him like this, overtaken with emotion, bitter exhaustion in his voice. He makes a soft choked noise, and Hayden immediately wants to kill something, whatever it is that's making him feel so awful. “I—Hayds—you're gonna hate me—”

    “No,” Hayden says before he can even finish the thought, almost hurt by the accusation. “No way. You're—I wouldn't. I won't.”

    Shane sniffs, offering him a sad smile, his eyes watery and solemn. It's an unfamiliar look, burnt through with sorrow and twisting doubt, sharp worry in the furrow of his brow. “You are,” he says, soft and certain. “I do, and I'm the one who's doing it.”

    OR: Shane returns to the hotel room, post-tuna melt. Hayden spirals.

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    23 Feb 2026

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    Newly traded to the Ottawa Centaurs, Ilya Rozanov is so close to having everything he’d never thought he was allowed to want. He can see the man he loves more than four times a year, he’s surrounded by a team who supports him through his injury, and Shane’s parents have unhesitatingly accepted him as part of the family.

    Except his lingering concussion symptoms have kept him sidelined from hockey, his boyfriend is still two hours away, their schedules are a disaster, and Shane’s team is, well…it’s full of assholes. There must be a way to make this all work out.

    or

    A sequel to a whump fanfiction with more whump…that is also, secretly, a fix-it.

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    17 Feb 2026

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    Wyatt was not, like, nosy. For sure, he was interested. He was curious. He engaged with people, obviously, because most people were interesting and engaging and had cool thoughts and said neat stuff if you asked.

    So, no. Wyatt wasn’t nosy, but he wasn’t stupid, either.

    Or: A Bromance Blooms In Ottawa
    Or: The Ballad of Wyatt and Ilya

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    16 Feb 2026

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    “I was thinking about the honeymoon phase thing.”
    “Yes?” Ilya said.
    “I think it’s different for us. I don’t want us to be all blissful and then only start fighting when we’re back to barely seeing each other. I think it’s good if we figure things out now, when we have the time. Whatever needs figuring out. So we have a solid foundation going into the season. Sort of like training camp.”
    “So this means you will keep getting mad at me for things,” Ilya said.
    Shane smiled, rolled his eyes. “Yeah, exactly,” he said.
    “Good, I find it very hot,” Ilya said, and kissed him.

    An insecure over-thinker and a self-destructive thrill-seeker walk into a relationship.

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    Chapters:
    5/5
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    16 Feb 2026

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