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Shane Hollander is my Angel by codiwill
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Heated Rivalry (TV) RPF, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
10 Jun 2026
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Shane is in a post-game interview when his world stops.
He’s just answered a question about Montreal’s offensive strategy going into the game. Clean passes, avoid penalties, draw defenders wide. It had worked and the Voyagers had beat Colorado soundly, 4-1. Shane had scored two of the goals and assisted on a third.
Usually, Shane would be eager to boast about the win to Ilya. But ever since their fight- since Ilya told Shane to leave- winning feels hollow. Losing feels better, somehow. As if Shane deserves to lose after being so selfish. Ilya gave up everything for him- his home, his team, and to some extent- his happiness. Hockey. Ilya gave up hockey- good hockey- for Shane.
A ripple goes through the room of reporters. Shane swears he hears the word ‘Ottawa’ and ‘crash’. But no one is paying attention to him anymore.
“What’s going on?” he asks into the microphone, feeling strange at the role reversal. Usually, he’s the one being asked questions.
No one answers. And this time he knows that he hears the word ‘Ottawa’ and ‘Centaurs’.
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Shane rushes to Ilya after the almost plane crash. Their secret is no longer a secret.
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- 10/?
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01 Jul 2026
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Shane Hollander, a lonely and longing househusband, calls pool cleaning services at the beginning of summer.
Ilya Rozanov the pool boy shows up.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 66,692
- Chapters:
- 17/17
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- 595
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30 Jun 2026
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I knew you'd haunt all of my what ifs by allmylovesatonce
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
22 Jun 2026
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Five years ago, Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov quietly went their separate ways. They handled their heartbreak differently. Shane cut off his family and friends and focused only on hockey, not that it helped, his game has totally fallen apart. Ilya had the support of the Centaurs, even if they didn't know why they were supporting him.
But when Ilya announces his retirement at the end of the next season, it shakes Shane back to reality. He has one season left to play against the man he still loves; and then, would he ever see him again? As Shane starts to piece his life back together, the biggest missing piece is still Ilya.
Ilya had planned to just enjoy the last season he'd play of professional hockey and obviously try to win another cup. But when Shane reaches back out, he has much more to consider. He never expected to talk to Shane again, but he can't deny that it's everything he's wanted in the last five years.
Can they salvage what they had? Should they even try? How can Shane and Ilya be a part of each other's lives again?
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- English
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- 134,160
- Chapters:
- 18/18
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- 1,679
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27 Jun 2026
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As the Romans Do by kooksie
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
01 Jun 2026
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As a straight man, Ilya Rozanov has never had a gay roommate before, but it’s going pretty well. Shane Hollander is kind, silly, and an even bigger hockey nut than Ilya.
So when Shane starts bringing men over, and Ilya begins to want to bash their fucking heads in, Ilya comes to a startling conclusion: He must be homophobic.
(He’s jealous.)
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- English
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- 40,186
- Chapters:
- 4/4
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10 Jun 2026
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Shane could deny it – he could try to pretend the man in the audio whimpering for more isn’t him, that it’s a scam, that it was fake or edited. He could get lawyers involved, or take it to the press before anything leaks and control the narrative himself. But he doesn’t know how much more the blackmailer has, and he can’t risk Ilya getting outed or deported or – well, he can’t risk Ilya.
*Shane and Ilya don't get caught at the cottage. But they still get caught.- Language:
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Bookmarked by scaredlonely
08 Jun 2026
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“How can Montreal be snowed in?” Ilya asks. “They are not ready for winter?”
“It’s Montreal, man,” Marleau snickers, like that's an explanation.
Jane- 9:44 a.m.- Look on the bright side. If you’re stuck another day, you can come back here.
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After Ilya leaves Shane’s apartment for the first time, he knows he’s on thin ice and at risk of falling into more serious feelings. He’s ready to put distance back between them.
A Montreal blizzard has other ideas.
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- English
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- 126,927
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- 28/?
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- 8,116
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05 Jun 2026
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Don't want you like a best friend by mintyhollander
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
02 May 2026
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It's always been like this between Ilya and him. Ilya would go to his favorite club, get drunk and he would come crashing at Shane’s place because it was nearer. He would slip into Shane’s bed, press him against his body with his strong arms and whisper sweet nothings against his ear before pressing a light kiss against his neck. Ilya tended to get clingy when drunk and Shane would let him.
But this will have to come to an end. Shane couldn’t bear being this close to Ilya anymore. They’ve been best friends for years and Shane’s always been in love with Ilya but never voiced his feelings out loud. This night would be the last. He would ask Ilya to give him his keys back. He would stop this even if it would be crushing him.
Or : Shane is in love with his best friend and doesn’t know how to handle his feelings anymore.
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21 May 2026
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Yours to Command by theuniversedoesnotscream
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
16 Apr 2026
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Ilya is loyal in a way that puts dogs to shame. Ever since the two of them were outed in the FanMail video Hayden filmed, Ilya has taken it as his personal life's mission to be Shane’s guard dog.
*alternatively, Shane Hollander has a husband and a attack dog wrapped up in one
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19 May 2026
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Often, Lately by AngelWithoutAShotgun
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
09 May 2026
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“Shane had been used to being alone. He'd never thought of himself as lonely. He honestly often craved the solitude, found it grounding. But that was before he knew what it was like to have someone to call, someone to touch. He was never lonely before Rozanov, but he'd been lonely ever since.”
April 2017: Shane does not get laid out on the ice.
Ilya goes through with ending it.
Shane lets him.
What follows is eleven months of distance, denial, and a quiet kind of devastation neither of them knows how to name, let alone fix.
They learn how to live without each other.
(Or at least, how to pretend.)
And then, almost a year later, the infamous collision happens and Shane goes down cold.
And suddenly, neither of them can pretend it doesn’t matter.
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- English
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- 26,126
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- 7/7
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- 1,050
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15 May 2026
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Rather than give him the joint, Ilya takes it back between his own lips and sucks in a deep breath, the tip glowing as he does so. Then, before Shane can process it, he’s reaching up and sliding one large hand around the back of Shane’s neck, pulling him down so their lips meet.
Shane gasps softly, and Ilya takes the opportunity to blow smoke into his open and waiting mouth.
Oh, God. Are you there? It’s me, Shane Hollander. We’ve had our differences, but I think I’d like to convert for real this time. I’m ready. Open the pearly white gates. I’m coming up.
Shane goes to a house party, gets high, then gets on his knees. bon appetite
now a multi-chapter saga bc i couldn't help myself- Language:
- English
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- 93,547
- Chapters:
- 5/5
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- 2,271
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14 May 2026
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Ilya Rozanov is being an annoying, horny Snapchat menace.
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- English
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- 25,333
- Chapters:
- 10/10
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- 878
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- 8,352
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06 May 2026
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turn the radio down by lizee
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
10 May 2026
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“I’ve…seen you around campus and it’s good to finally meet you. Like, properly.” He fumbled over the words, his tongue feeling thick and heavy and entirely too big for his mouth. Whether it was from the weed or the nerves from Ilya's presence, Shane couldn't tell.
“I’ve seen you, too.” Ilya grabbed the cigarette from behind his ear, bringing it to his mouth before lighting it.
“Really?” He watched as Ilya took a long inhale from the cigarette. Shane wanted to say something in that moment, something about how mixing alcohol, weed, and nicotine was probably a bad idea, but the words died in his throat as Ilya blew out smoke from the corner of his mouth and grinned at him. He looked so fucking good.
“Da, Shane Hollander.” Shane fought back a shiver as his name fell from Ilya’s lips. He loved how Ilya’s voice had wrapped around the vowels, long drawn out and quiet. He wanted to hear it again and again.
or, Shane Hollander has had a crush on Ilya Rozanov from afar for the past three years. They finally meet at a party.
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- English
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- 39,419
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- 6/6
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05 May 2026
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re: hi by fleezerweezer
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
30 Apr 2026
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At eleven years old Ilya Rozanov's class is given an assignment:
They will be randomly paired with a student at another school in Canada via email. In order to get full credit on the assignment, they must send at least five emails back and forth and gather enough information to write their project.
After seven years, Ilya is pretty sure he's done enough for 100%
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Shane and Ilya sending emails throughout the years. What happens when they meet?
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- Part 1 of re: hi
- Language:
- English
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- 67,472
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- 21/21
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14 Apr 2026
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show me who you are (p*rnstar) by notlikeiloveyou
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
11 Apr 2026
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The rules are simple: don't fall for someone you meet on OnlyFans.
Shane is good at following rules.
Ilya isn't.
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13 Apr 2026
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i only threw this party for you by LunarMoonstone
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
29 Apr 2026
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"Oh, it looks like you’re doing better! With those scores, I guess we won’t have to meet as often anymore." Shane was beaming, proudly looking down at the transcript. Ilya’s smile immediately dropped.
Needless to say, he scored 20 points lower on the next midterm.
In which popular hockey fuckboy Ilya Rozanov falls madly in love with the university's golden boy Shane Hollander. Somehow, they go from being the talk on campus to becoming that couple.
Alternatively, my take on the Jock!Ilya x Nerd!Shane trope bc it is desperately underrepresented.
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- English
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- 88,928
- Chapters:
- 8/8
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- 1,469
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- 16,623
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05 Apr 2026
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Mutually Assured Exposure by cockatoo
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
05 Apr 2026
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While at the top of his game, professional porn star Ilya Rozanov is approached by the famous yet boringly untalented OnlyFans creator Shane Hollander who wants to collaborate. What starts as a transactional partnership quickly turns into a war of egos, blurred boundaries, and incredible on-camera chemistry.
As their views climb and the sexual tension thickens they're left to confront the reality that maybe their mutual hatred might be the spark for some thing far more intimate then just sex.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 108,309
- Chapters:
- 10/10
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- 1,330
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- 10,279
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- 3,718
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- 336,715
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27 Mar 2026
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Trying to Forget Everything That Isn't You by OrYouCouldHaveMine
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)
02 Mar 2026
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“Fuck, that’s good. You feel so good,” Shane moans above him.
He pulls him down again, and this time he holds him there, his hands firm on Ilya’s head. Instinctively, Ilya fights it, his throat spasming around the intrusion, and he tries to pull off, but Shane holds him there.
“Ah, ah. No. That’s not how you say it’s too much. You tap my leg, remember?”
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Immediate sequel to 'I Keep Telling Myself, I'm not the Desperate Type'
Stoner frat boy Ilya x cool, jock ShaneSeries
- Part 2 of Stoner Ilya
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 8,894
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Comments:
- 409
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- 8,998
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26 Mar 2026
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it's the dirtiest clean i know by Anonymous
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
24 Mar 2026
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Ilya: fine. Do what u want
Shane: This is the last time.
Ilya: 🤫
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- Part 2 of moth to a flame
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 10,160
- Chapters:
- 1/1
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- 1
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- 41
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- 776
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- 81
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- 9,943
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24 Mar 2026
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frequently, secretly fond of each other. by milominderbinder
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
14 May 2026
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Shrugging one shoulder far more casually than he possibly feels, Ilya says, “I like both. Is secret, okay?”
“Okay,” Hollander says, voice cracking.
He doesn’t say anything else. The air’s so heavy around them that it feels like being in the middle of a scrum, the weight and heat of all those bodies pressing down on you. Danger always feels like hockey; it’s the most dangerous thing Ilya knows, except for this. Everything dangerous in his life involves men’s bodies and just how close he can get to them. Closer than he probably should.
A year after mysteriously dropping out of the 2009 draft, Shane Hollander is signed by the Boston Raiders, right behind Ilya Rozanov. Having the two biggest stars in the league on the same line is great for Boston — but playing alongside their worst rival was never exactly in Shane or Ilya's plans. Especially not when staying away from each other starts to feel just as impossible as getting along.
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- Part 1 of frequently, secretly.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 222,222
- Chapters:
- 28/28
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- 17,624
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- 45,397
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22 Mar 2026
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Shane and Hayden have been together for 2 years and things are going great. Or, as great as it can be going between two men who have the same boring routine every single day. But when Shane gets a new personal trainer at the gym, sparks fly and questionable choices are made.
[Please read tags. Just like my other fic (The Love Triangle) this is gonna be messy and awful so read with caution and know what you’re getting into before you read it]
- Language:
- English
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- 101,372
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- 19/19
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- 747
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22 Mar 2026